I'm currently sitting at a week past midterm of my fourth quarter at Savannah College of Art and Design Atlanta. It's an experience, let me tell you.
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Being the Parent I'm Meant to Be
Oliver Bennett Chan was born on May 6th, 2013. He was a very healthy 8.5 lbs. He was born via cesarean. It was a traumatic experience for me this time around. My first born was also a cesarean, but things went very smoothly. I won't delve into details here. That's for another time.
One thing I've always struggled with is being the 'good' parent. When I was pregnant with my first, Lukas, I told myself I was going to be the parent who read to him every night, focused on educational learning, would never yell, etc. etc.
I was infuriated when I learned I wasn't anything remotely like I imagined myself as being. For a while after my first son was born I hated myself and resented him. It took me a long time to accept that I wasn't going to be the parent I had made up in my mind. So, I accepted things for the way they were. I decided instead to focus on praying for patience to deal with a needy baby.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Goodbye, 20s! Hello, 30s.
About six months ago (or maybe longer), I jokingly mentioned to my husband that I would like my 30th birthday to be BIG. I mentioned Vegas. Needless to say, it stuck. We moved money around, sold some things, and began saving. We booked our hotel room and airline tickets through our hotel's web site.
We left early in the morning just a week or so after my actual birthday. My son, who has not been by my side for almost two years, was dropped off at Grammie's house for the week. It was a tough goodbye.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
An Introduction of Sorts
I'm about to say the cheesiest thing humanly possible. When my son was born, I was embodied with the motivation (that I had lacked since birth) to make a better life for myself and my new baby. Up until that point I was a college drop out and had never held a job for longer than a year.
In 2008, like many others, I was laid off. I was the first to go when the belts starting tightening around the neck of the company I worked for. Mistakenly, I believed my job was safe. I was the only graphic designer employed. They weren't going to let me go. They needed me. Right?
Being fired/let go/laid off is devastating. I don't care where you are in life, whether you are starting out or have been with a company for twenty years, it doesn't make it any easier. I was just starting out. In the span of ten minutes my dreams for homeownership, children, and a happy life crashed and burned. Melodramatic? Maybe, but that's how I felt. I had planned to work for that company for 5+ years. Man, had I been disillusioned.
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